Today I had a case of obsession with problem solving. After meddling with WordPress for hours and feeling disappointed with it, I was not satisfied with the outcome and decide to pursuit further with Movable Type instead. Though I am already feeling exhausted and wasted a lot of time, but somehow my inner voice tells me the solution could be found just around the next corner.
The feeling is kinda funny.
Though setting up a blogging tool is not really essential, but I do it as well.
Though it is perfectly normal for the plugin to fail, but I open up the source code to evaluate the code though I know nuts about Perl and CGI.
Though it is no big deal for the plugin to misbehave slightly or respond in a not user friendly manner, but I want to fix that as well.
Though it is common not to have a certain feature, but I want it in as well.
Though I should have stop and go for dinner, but I couldn’t stop as well.
Am I a case of perfectionism, or mere obsession with problem solving? Perhaps in my mind, I believe that a good blogging tool should have categorization, hassle free comment and CAPTCHA verification system. When one component is not available or not working properly, I felt quite disappointed as I thought those were the basic stuffs. It should be there by default, but it isn’t. I want to fix it, but it is too much effort and it just isn’t worth it. Yet, I couldn’t give up and continue with my pointless relentless pursuit. I should have moved it, yet I couldn’t. My mind is locked into dwelling on the pointless problem solving. Perhaps it is the belief that the solution should be there, yet making it hard to accept when it didn’t work as per the minimal expectation.
I actually spent the whole day trying to solve a non-critical problem (started out of curiosity and thinking it would be fast and simple), which I shouldn’t be doing. I think I have a serious obsession problem, and should learn how to let go of things and move on. It sure is exhausting, seems like a pretty pointless day chasing shadow.
Perhaps I have too high of a regard for WordPress or Movable Type, or my minimal requirements are not realistic, or my standard on usability is too much to ask for.
It is okay to be relentless in problem solving, only if the problem is worth solving.