Wednesday, March 08, 2006

I want Big Tea Rice ! (我要吃大茶饭!)

Today got quite shocking news, that Wynn is going to end her Jobless Bump life and going back to employment life. Her Jobless Bump life should last as long as 8 weeks, and go back to her old company and start earning some smelly cash. She need the money for her mother and grandmother’s vacation, to repay back some government loan, to pay for her sisters’ future education and for basic survival as well. She had a lot of responsibility on her shoulder, and I guess that is the destiny of being the eldest in most family: to take care of the family.

At the same time, I am saddened of loosing a Jobless Bump buddy. Though we didn’t bump together much after resignation, but we did resign on the same day, had some great time together and being jobless together. She had her recovery, I had my dream chasing, but I kinda felt we are actually together. Somehow, it is nice to have someone to bump together with me, but she is leaving the bumping lifestyle soon.

I am very happy for her, for finally decided on what she wanted to do with her life at the current moment.

I am happy for her being strong, logical and feel the need to carry the responsibility for her family.

I am happy for her to find the courage to come back to Kuala Lumpur without the need to escape again.

I am happy for her that she is a happy person.

But I am sad and feel kinda lost, in the sense that I am a lonely Jobless Bump now. It sounds kinda stupid, but I really felt the lost. In fact, I am kinda depressed. Cannot!

I cannot sulk anymore.

I cannot whine anymore.

Dream must come TRUE!

I must not give up half way through!

I need to finish the journey!

I need to conquer mountains!

I want accomplishment and happiness!





PS: Mei Ru should be happy hearing this, treat and appreciate her better when she is around la.


christine said...

wah hahaha wah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!you look like a mental illness patient! hahahahahahahahahahahaha

d_luaz said...

wei, I am trying very hard to motivate muself la. Give face a bit, can?

christine said...

heehee, ok ok , I can give face to you! Worh hard work hard!!!!!!Totally support you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!